When I logged onto my computer tonight, my mind was racing as I felt sorry for myself and recounted the "blessings" of the week. It's been one of those weeks - more like one of those months - seasons. You know the ones.
It seems like there has been a sick child in this house since Labor Day. I've lost count of the number of times I have been to the doctor's office. They are my new peeps! When I walk in, they automatically pull up my account, and I hand over my debit card. The story's pretty much the same at The Drug Store.
This week, it was Annie's turn to get sick. She's on antibiotics and getting better. Although, I think she now has hives. Joy! Then, there's sweet Ellie. Bless her heart! Her thumb didn't make it out of the way of the sliding door of the van last night. Together, she and I stood in the church parking lot crying. Me - apologizing; E - saying it was OK and that she thought she moved it (her thumb). In case you're wondering, M whimpered. I just don't think she knew what else to do. Fortunately, it was not broken, but I did have a disappointed 5 year old who had hoped the doctor would give her a brace for her troubles. Just as things were looking up and Karen had called to say she was coming to visit, Mollie got sick. I tell you I just wanted to run away. Not quite sure what's going on with her. Since Ellie had strep last week and Annie has had a form of strep, my guess is this is strep. Who knows! I have to admit I wanted to scream, "Enough Lord! Please!!"
Then, GOD reminded me how blessed I am to have a spotty 5 month old, a 5 year old with a bruised thumb and a puking 2 year old. Today is a day of remembrance for those who have lost babies. Our little family fits into this category. I knew this day was coming, but I had forgotten that it was today. There are so many whose lives have been altered forever by the loss of a child. I can't imagine the pain of holding your lifeless baby in your arms, but I do know the pain of holding one in your heart.
So, thank you God for my spotty 5 month old little Annie, my bruised up 5 year old Ellie and my sick little 2 year old Mollie.
My cup runneth over!
2 comments:
Aw, ur gonna make me cry!!! They ARE blessings and this two shall pass. I love you, my very dearest friend, and I know you cover your stress in jokes and sarcasm, but I know how trying things are for you right now. There are people in your corner, loving you and praying for you.
"He shall cover you with His feathers, and under His wings you shall take refuge; His truth shall be your sheild and buckler." Psalm 91:4
You made me cry for sure! I love this. Love how you perfectly described the way I've been feeling lately--losing a child you held in your heart.
I'm so sorry life with your "angels" has been so tough lately. I hope you know I'm here whenever you need me! You can bring me one (or two...maybe not all 3...) of those sweet girls anytime!
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